A New Day?

[islander]

When I went to bed last night, I prayed that GOD would work on my W heart just as he did the other day. I pray all of the time. I went to bed, and about 1 am, I heard my alarm deactivate, and our dog (which my W took). I sat in bed for a minute knowing it had to be my W, but wondered if I was dreaming. I wasn't dreaming. I went to meet my wife, and we sat on the couch. I noticed she was wearing her wedding rings!!!!!

She said she did not wanted to hurt me anymore, but wanted to know if she could tell me how she was feeling. I told her of course she could tell me (it was 1 am, she was wearing her rings, and she was home) but I was nervous about what I would here. She also asked if she could talk about OM, and I said that was ok too.

W said she had a really hard day. Said how she ended the R with OM, but missed him. She said it was hard, but she knew what she had to do and what she wanted, our M She said when she ended it, he told her he had been feeling like she was going to go back home to me. She said OM W had also filed for D yesterday. She said it did not feel right for her to stay in her apt, that it was wrong for her to get it, and she wanted to come home bc that felt right to her. I told her as I have bf that all she had to do was come home and we would work on our M together.

W said that she wanted me to be patient with her and that she probably would not be affectionate right away. I told her I was ok with that, that I wanted to do things right with her. I want her to be affectionate with me bc she wants to be, nit bc I want her to be. I want it to be genuine.

W said that she wanted to be completely honest with me from here on. I told her I agreed and that I had already told myself that I needed to start trusting her today. I also told her there were certain things that I didn't need to know, that I did not want to be stuck in the past. I wanted to move forward with her. She agreed, and we both said we wanted to learn from our mistakes.

She also said she never wanted to cheat on me again. She caused to much hurt and pain, and she couldn't handle the stress. I agreed.

A great night. Almost no sleep and I feel great. A lot of work ahead, and I believe we are both up for the challenge. I know I left out a lot of info, and I will post the important parts as I remember them.

I just want everybody to know that they should not give up hope on their WAS. As of last week I would have told you I did not see any hope in my sitch. I also no that looking back, I was ignoring little signs that said there was hope bc I was listening to my Ws words and not focusing on her actions.