Recovering after a same sex affair - Part 3

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Quiet day today. W sent me home yesterday with some soiled clothes from daycare to wash (she has no washer at her apartment). She said that she could pick them up at 6:45 this morning or I could drop them at the front door. I told her that I would wake up early and give them to her. I told her that I missed our S and wanted to give him a kiss on the way to daycare. She made it over at 6:45. She made coffee. I spent 5 minutes with our S and then she was off.

W came back over at 5:00 to drop S off. Dad's night! He is feeling tons better, so we went on a 2 mile walk with him strapped in the Baby Bjorn carrier around our hiking trails. He loves going on these walks. I do, too. Plus, it is good exercise for me running around with a 19 pound weight strapped to my chest. We got home just in time for his bedtime routine. S has been asleep for about an hour now.

Had a chance to come to some peace on our walk concerning my wife's self discovery. In the end, I pray that she finds what she needs. If it is with me, I welcome a new improved M and solid family base for our S. If not, I will be in a better place to move on.

I keep telling myself this. It is tough, because I love her immensly. It is because I love her so much, that I am willing to let her go if I can't fulfill her needs.