W called me on Monday saying that she needed to tell me something. Apparently W and SIL talked about the redecorating in the bedroom and W wanted to tell me that she didn't take down our wedding items from the wall in our bedroom. I thanked her but asked why she was telling me this. "Cause you freaked out before and I don't want to do it again". Sounds nice but I gotta call bs on that. You are divorcing me, why do you care if I freak out?
Had our daily Tuesday night dinner after dance and I went home thinking...We are so far apart its not funny. She is pleasant but starts no conversation with me at all. We wouldn't talk if I did start.
I mentioned in last post that we talked about going to lunch to try and spark something but after the last few days I'm beginning to realize that we are nowhere ready for that. I don't want to have to ash her to go to lunch, I want her to WANT to go to lunch. So I decided that it is in my best interest to pull father back.
? For anybody willing to answer. We still have joint account, plus W has her own account that her paycheck goes into. This used for day care and her work related needs. $ has been very tight these last few months cause I'm trying to budget 2 households. I want to open my own account and start putting some of my work check in it to begin a nest egg cause I can't live with mom forever. If I do that then W will not be able to cover all of the bills. My concern is that this will push her away from me but how much concern should I have???
