Thank you, LP!

Well, I still haven't responded to either of his texts. It's been almost 24 hours. I'm not sure what to do here. He didn't call last night as he's been doing, I guess in respond to not responding to him. So here are my options:

Option #1 - don't respond at all while he's gone. That would be a complete 180. BUT he'd respond by getting angry, building walls, saying he thought that meant I was done, etc.

Option #2 - respond, happy, ignoring the argument from 2 days ago. This is typical behavior now for me as I DB and try to keep the peace. He responds best to this... but why shouldn't he? Makes him accountable for nothing.

Option #3 - a single one response of "ok" to his text that he landed safely. 18 hours after he sent it. Not a 180 but a 90... enough for him to notice that I'm not responding immediately, not trying to make contact with him, not being clingy or eager to repair damage from the argument, not putting him first or being his cheerleader. Leaning to this one.

H added me to his FB acct 2 weeks ago. He had turned it off in January, now it's back on. I think he has me blocked from seeing posts as he's not posted anything - or maybe he's not posting anything. Who knows. Our mutual FB friends are all his friends so I can't ask them. He removed my family during his last tantrum when he turned the acct off. Anyway, I choose which updates he can see as I do a lot with work on there for marketing and he complained about all the news updates. So I choose the updates he sees... positive ones about work where co-workers applaud my work (I work in non-profits so it's pretty great compliments about really heart-warming things).... trying to let him see how others perceive me so the idiot realizes what he has. I have only let him see positive, GAL posts. This morning I posted Beyonce's video "Irreplacable" (inspired by Bond's post) with the update "Late night, trying to wake up, 3 cups of coffee and some Beyonce to get motivated and have a great day!". A few comments by friends about Beyonce's hair color in the video so it's not a blatant post to H. Followed up by "pocketful of sunshine", which was used in our wedding video but it's still a positive, jamming song with a comment about the nasty weather here today and would rather be on a beach. Trying to show him I'm GAF, because I am! But part of me feels manipulative for posting that. Was it bad?

I need to decide on responding to him.


Me - 38, 2nd M, no living children, 1 forever 6 yr old boy
H - 44, 3rd M, twins 16

Dating 4/07
M 10/08
Bomb #1 12/10
Bomb #2 1/11
Bomb #3 12/11