kinda tired of analysing, wondering, wandering, living here in limboland
My patterns:
Why do I have to _____ when she isn't ______? Why should I _____ if she doesn't _______?
I really am still acting like a child sometimes.
Here's a better way:
Needs are more essential and fulfilling than desires. To figure out what I want, I ask:
What would I like to have?
But to figure out what I need, I think of myself at some point in the future looking back on this, and I ask:
What would I like to have done?
I would like to have just shut up and do as I was told by my coach.
I would like to have given The WAW time and space to come to me.
It worked when I did it twice before, and The WAW has already told me she is going to attend a coaching session...
So I would have liked to use these next few days as an opportunity to be patient, to not force or coerce in anyway, and to become even more attuned to the needs of my best friend.
I would not like to have indulged in any kind of shenanigans that could have jeopardized our chances of reconciliation, even though The WAW is saying she is not committed, that she wants to be single, and that she no longer wants to be with me.
Looking back on this, just as I have vowed, I would like to have been an outstanding husband first and foremost.
And so I must continue to think, feel, act and behave like the outstanding husband that I am.
Period.
Sleep well everyone.
I am being the possibility of:
1) Integrity 2) Loving myself completely. 3) Things flowing naturally between us, without any fear or attachment to the outcome.
