One of the hardest things for me to let go of was analyzing (over and over and over and over)the things that I saw as confusing (mixed signals et al). It will make you absolutely bonkers.
Trust that nothing has changed for him unless and until he speaks it.
Ah, The stories I could tell (as can anyone here)...good times (NOT!)
Bottom line, it doesn't matter. You have to focus on yourself and your son.
I agree with Cat. You did backslide. You know it and that is AWESOME! It lets you watch yourself more closely and have a plan for what to do the next time. I have gotten incredibly good and taking at least 8 good breaths before I respond and even then if it's something that's loaded for me, I say that I need to mull it over and I'll get back to you on that.
Right now sweetie, it can only be all about you and your son.
