At the last stop

[Orchid37]

I know that you are right, zengypsy. I can't imagine that he will not feel the "restlessness" and "need to leave" again, when he has not figured out what is causing it in the first place. It just seems too late for "us".

I think I have been thinking about the "rest of my life" and freaking out. Most of my friends and all of my family have their own families. I will be on my own. Its daunting. Some moments, I find panic that I have no kids...but, then...you are right...a child is not the glue for a M.

I have never been one to fear...but the finality of it makes me very uneasy. Who will care for me and vice versa? Who will I bounce ideas off of - on a day to day basis? How do I plan for my life? Who do I go on vacations with?

I'm very lucky.....I have a steady good job...but, then what? Life is about people and relationships.....

Thank you so much for your email....It really helped me thru my day today with some peace. I felt understood...Thank you.

I went to ur page...I'm sorry to read about the upcoming D.

Its a numb experience....For me - it seemed unreal to me! I just..... walked thru it, in a haze ...did my best...cried after it was over and then went for a day of spa! Just - to keep myself focused on the best of myself.

Do you have a plan for that day?