Living a Country Song - Part III

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Man, this forum is great. Thank you so much for everyone who has replied. Fantastic advice. I hear it. I really do.

Denver, you are right that this OW is confusing matters. She is a pretty cool girl, and she likes me. I wouldn't be human if that didn't feel good. BUT, it is not what I ultimately want. I want my family back. So, she opens up this other path. A path that can bring immediate, but ultimately short lived happiness. I need to step back and look at the big picture again.

Quick update:

Just back from a Dr. Appt for by D along with my W. It went fine. Nothing really to report. Everything was kept to just idle light chit chat. I was happy and charming. So was my W. Our D did great. My W actually brought up getting me a B-Day present. I wasn’t expecting that. My guess is it will be from by D. We’ll see. I had the strongest urge to kiss her at what point, of course I did not. There was one point where we had to hold our D’s arms down. I was holding D and my W wrapped her arms around me from behind to help out. I couldn’t help but notice, but it was nothing… I did play the song I did of our D for her, she got a kick out of that. There were a couple awkward moments when the Dr. was asking questions about home that I saw my W get uncomfortable with. Neither of us wanted to mention that we are living separately.

Anyways, time to pick myself up by my bootstraps and regain the strength I had. Luckily through this I have hopefully not shown this weakness to my W. I sense a good night ahead of me. I will keep myself busy and keep my mind in check. Thanks again to everyone who chimed in. The support here is priceless.