It was interesting to read your notes from Dr. Phil, Sanderika. However, I am really concerned for you. Your H's recent pull back is because he is guilty over his trip to Florida. That's what always happened with H whenever he had guilt over something, he would go MIA. Hugs to you as this must be so painful for you, once again. You have been an incredible support for me and I hate to see this pain for you.
For me, I have entered total 'confusion land'. H skyped again last night to talk and at his initiation we had a whole discussion on his inability to forgive himself. I will re-read the convo history and give more detail later but essentially I interpret that he can't live with himself with the guilt over what he has done. He wants me in his life, he is trying really hard but he doesn't know where I fit in the future. I let him say whatever he wanted and tried hard to affirm him because it became so apparent that he is confused. I didn't ask him about ow but I was so, so close. He is definitely concerned about others and how they feel about him and what he's done and he kept saying that they were well justified in their thinking. He just can't forgive himself and when he feels pressure he retreats which is no good because he doesn't deal with the problem. It became apparent in the convo that he does care for me and he has deep remorse but that the pain and damage I have experienced is nothing compared to the pain he feels and this will inhibit any possible future. I can't see a way forward if he feels the need to retreat.
