Zen, I pray you are right. I have faith you are. I hope jumping in here is not out of line

Trust is a huge issue with me also. It has been so damaged that even if W woke up and came back pleading I would need to develop trust with her before anything positive could result.

I understand my role in this sitch and I will come out stronger. I am doing my 180s. I think she noticed then ran back into the fog and went dark so she doesn’t have to acknowledge the changes. She is so wrapped up in self that I don’t think she can see much of anything now.

I understand she has many of the same issues and feels much of the same stresses I do. Rather than examine her role in this I am the villain again. I understand eventually she will awaken again and begin to examine self. Until she examines and acknowledges her role in this she will not regret anything. I don’t know where I will be when this occurs.


BITS
Me 55, ACK, when did that happen? Doesn't feel like 55
D 30
S 27

You create your own universe as you go along - Winston Churchill