Well, thanks to everyone who replied. I obviously have a lot of thinking to do.

I am scared. I'm scared of the future. I'm scared of losing everything I have loved. I'm scared of the unknown.

I started all of this with a certain amount of tunnel vision. Only seeing one way to proceed. All of a sudden I see a fork in the road. This decision is causing some internal turmoil. I know the path I should take, but I also know how hard it will be. The easier path becomes tempting.

The 2x4's hurt, but they also help bring back some strength. I need to build that strength back up. A new day and anything is possible I guess. I must keep my demons in check.

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Happiness is not something ready made. It comes from your own actions.