Not sure if this is the right place for me

[lostmiss97]

So, I have this private blog I've been using as a journal. It's all directed towards my H. Lately, I've been wanting to send him the link to it... which would probably be the most counterproductive thing to do. But, what I want to do right now is pour my heart out to him and fight for him... does that make sense? I want to lay it all out there and just tell him what I think and what I'd like to have happen.

I feel like all I've done is fail. All I've done is lay down and take what he's done to our family without a fight. I don't understand how not talking to him is going to do anything. I just want him home... but, I don't think that's ever going to happen.