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[MrBond]

"lets go to a mediator if you love her and want to be with her"

Stop saying things like that. Stop making the A the reason for you to file. The reason you want to file is because you are being disrespected. Period.

Before you do anything else, go and see a new counselor to get your head on straight. Right now you're running around and basing your decisions on emotion rather than common sense.

Then go and see a L to know your rights. There are a number of public service agencies that can help you for free. Just call.

But most importantly. Get a counselor! I know you haven't had one in awhile despite you saying you do. Be honest with yourself and the rest of us here. YOu need help BIG TIME. You need the support of someone there. Being online is fine, but you need to take care of this depression first.

And let's face it you are facing MAJOR depression and need help right away. If not, I can guarantee that you will do something rash and will only push you further to the edge and hurt your son more than it hurts you. In the end that's who you're hurting the most. Your son.