Living a Country Song - Part III

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TG, I have thought more about this and I need to be honest with myself.

I have slipped hard as far as my personal goals and improvements are concerned.

I have been drinking more again. I haven't worked out in over a week. I am seeing some girl I am not even interested in. My current path is more one of self destruction than self improvement.

Mentally I am all over the place. I have been angry at her a lot lately. That makes it hard to focus on me. It makes it hard to care.

I guess I need to REALLY decide what I want. What I am willing to do?

I guess a part of me just questions all of this. How can it work if she never sees it? If what I am doing doesn't save the M, do I care? I have been a self destructive person for a long time. I care about my family SO much. But I have never cared that much about myself. I know that has almost everything to do with why I am here today.