Side Trip from Forward Motion

[BeingMe]

Okay, so I find myself in the worst possible situation. My ex-bf came to visit me in Germany and so did my H (although, he was really coming to meet the baby). All went well, H and ex-BF got on famously as did he with my SIL32 and my D30. We went for dinners, out to historical places, etc. I actually to meet-up with ex-BF at the train station earlier, so we had a chance to meet for the first time in 33 years. It was amazing --- we hugged, and didn't stop talking from then on. All was fine, had a great weekend with everyone. H was tired and got to bed early, and we sat around chatting for awhile then ex-BF went back to his b&b. All is fine and good on the western frontier. Ex went back early on Sunday, and H later that day. H likes ex, says he's a good guy and Ex says the same of H.

The next weekend, I rent a car and go visit ex-BF in city where he works. I stay with him, and all was going according to plan on the Friday night. We are able to talk and talk and talk into the night. We fell asleep on the same bed because we talked ourselves to sleep, and nothing happened. Phew!

I really was not interested romantically .... I really, really treasure this man's friendship beyond any kind of romance, or A, or whatever. He was my best friend 33 years ago before we ever slept together. And that was what I was aiming for and he tells me that he was too. He has a GF who lives in her country and he gets there once every few weeks, but its complicated in that she has a 8yr old daughter who has regarded my ex-BF as her dad almost all her life, even though he has no intention of marrying the GF or anyone else, for that matter. I know this, and I would never ask him or anyone else to give up such a huge responsibility. I don't know what his R with GF is like. He doesn't say, and I don't ask. I might've got to that before this weekend, but I couldn't now.

I have to get my thoughts into gear ... will post some more later.