"You seem to not truly care what I'm feeling and what I've been ignoring. You want things to turn out your way and that's it!!"
Listen to her.
Really listen.
Now.
Her feelings are her feelings. You can jump up and down and stomp your feet saying she shouldn't feel this way or that you want her to feel differently.
Feelings? Are spantaneous reactions to stimulus. Good or bad. They are not controllable.
What you do with them is controllable.
You can sit here and wish and hope she feels differently or
start killing those things that create them.
In you.
At the very basic level Busting. Way down in there.
Is your fear.
Fear your W won't take you back. Guilt for being someone you know you want to be but are afraid to try.
I don't give a rat's patooty about your W right now.
Time for you save yourself. Save you and your M maybe...
Maybe.
Has a shot.
It is easy to blame your current situation for not taking this step.
It is easy to feel defeated because of your failings.
If you are unhappy with yourself why would someone want to be with that person?
You don't even want to be with that person right now.
Those things up there in your sig. Good qualities.
So where does your self doubt lie?
Find it. Hunt it down and kill it.
Take a step for YOU.
My goal is to some day be the person my dog thinks I am
