Got hit with a massive 2x4 today. By my mom! Who would have thought such a little runt could throw such a heavy wallop!
Basically came down to me feeling so inadequate and insecure all my life that it's no wonder I am so often trying to plot and plan and control the outcome of every little thing.
She totally busted me on what I was thinking / planning / orchestrating for tomorrow's DB call with wife. I had my plans all laid out for what I was going to say and do...
Add now...
Hi my name is Mike and I am addicted to being in control.
More about this later.
About 30 minutes ago I got a text from my wife saying:
Thx for the flowers they're beautiful I'm speechless about your song! You can call don't text I'm at work but not too busy now
What I like most is that I didn't instantly respond. I went for a little walk first and didn't even think about what I was going to say.
For me this is definitely progress.
Appears I've done some good today.
Will tell you more about it later.
I am being the possibility of:
1) Integrity 2) Loving myself completely. 3) Things flowing naturally between us, without any fear or attachment to the outcome.
