Liked this post so much just wanted to give myself a reminder...
Originally Posted By: LauraOh
GAL and having a window of opportunity can go hand in hand.
I made a bucket list. It is mine--all about me. My H wouldn't want to do any of it anyway, probably.
I get very excited about the things that I will do for ME. I can now gear my life in this direction. I do have a S15 to think of, but in just a few years he'll be "off" and then I can REALLY go for this stuff. But in the meantime, there have been many pleasant hours researching, planning, dreaming, scheming...Very joyful, wonderful hours!!
Am I doing anything that will close the door on my H? I don't think so. If anything, if he is around, it will make me a more interesting person.
If there is another person somewhere down the line, the NEW person has to get in line--behind MY bucket list!! Because new people are going to interfere!!
So whether it's H or not doesn't matter. There is a certain amount of time out there that is MINE. 2 years? 5 years? 10 years? I don't know.
Because these things, as I really think about them, are my very favoritest (if that is a word.lol) things. I have been around almost 48 years (next Tues is my Bday).
I have gotten down to the basic, core things that make me happy. I'm not 20. Clothes and partying don't make me happy. I'm not 30. New cars and big houses don't make me happy. I'm not really even 40 much longer. Keeping up with my neighbors doesn't make me happy.
My bucket list isn't difficult or expensive. It's just...me.
Have you done your bucket list SC? Don't worry about your H "getting it" or "his childhood problems" or ...
Happiness isn't going to be looking at someone else and having them "get anything". It's about YOU.
Thanks LauraOh!
I am being the possibility of:
1) Integrity 2) Loving myself completely. 3) Things flowing naturally between us, without any fear or attachment to the outcome.