Well, reached out to W via texting last night. No response. Strike one...

I will try again in a couple of days, but I don't have much hope for this either. I guess I will have face the fact that I will have to see her next weekend at my brother's wedding and we will have some very serious awkwardness between the two of us.

I am getting very tired of being drug over a barrel. My emotions are torn and my mind is not at peace. This game is awful and I just can't understand how people can do this to each other. I am very tired emotionally. I just want this to be over one way or the other...

I am starting to believe that I can and will love another. Not all hope is lost in my life. I am thinking about changing my moniker to "Phoenix." I will rise from this.

FOBD

Me: 39
W: 36
T: 15 yrs
M: 9 yrs
S: 09/10

So you can get on with your search, baby
And I can get on with mine
And maybe someday we will find,
That it wasn't really wasted time...