Need help ASAP- panic attacks

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So I did ask D12. She told me she would rather talk to the psychologist by herself. She said "She's my therapist, its my therapy, I want her to see things from MY point of view".

Guess she answered it for me after all. She's a smart kid. I have hope she'll go through this less scarred than me (who knows).

We had a pretty happy two weeks so far without Dad after the panic attacks. I did strive to make our weekends fun.

He will be home in two days. I actually am starting to feel a twinge of anxiety. This is terrible, instead of feeling excited that he will be home, I am nervous. I miss him but I always imagine the old H walking through the door, and I should not do that and should think in the present.

We did have good phone conversations though over the course of that two weeks. He sounded upbeat most of he time, willing to spend more than the usual "how are you and D12 today kind of convo. He asked questions, volunteered info on what he was doing and with whom (safe coz OW is not anywhere near him anyways. He did ask about D12's psych appointment and agreed that she should talk to Psych by herself.

I did a couple of projects around the house - reupholstered some chairs, repainted some old furniture - which I really love doing. helped keep my mood up. I stated taking St. Johns Wort also.

I think the idea of living parallel lives while within the same household and helping bring up D12 is appealing to me right now. But no legalities for now....and no A's being flung into my face.