Rysmom, the point I was trying to make to you i this. You are suffering from major depression, you don't want to do anything, you are not moving forward with your life, and all you do is sit around and think about them 24/7. What possible difference would a divorce make in the way you feel? On top of all of this, you H is spending or hiding all of your money. Let me ask this, is there anything that you see preventing him from being with this OW?