Thanks for all the support. I find it so discouraging to see so many going through this horrendous upheaval, but also take some comfort in knowing I'm not alone.
Given the fact that H already realizes he has childhood issues and is in IC and even said he'd wondered if he's having a MLC, would it be a good idea to find some info, a book or something to give him to help him understand what he's experiencing?
Yesterday I joined a gym and worked out for an hour. I haven't exercised regularly since before I got pregnant with D4 5 years ago. It felt really good. I've lost 25 lbs. on the anxiety diet over the past 6 weeks which I am loving also- babyweight begone! H came to visit kids while I went to the gym, and when I came back he was pretty cold, had packed more of his stuff to bring to his friend's house, and left pretty soon after I got home. I was upbeat and friendly, but later called my mom and sobbed with a pain in my chest so awful I couldn't stand it. I just keep thinking and saying "I don't want to do this anymore. I don't want to suffer like this ANY MORE!" I need to detach, but HOW?????
Me- 35 H- 36 M- 7 T- 9 D3, D5 Bomb 1/21/11 EA/PA began 12/10? Discovered A 3/2/11 S- 3/3/11 OW gone- 4/27/11 H says he wants to reconcile, but lacking action
