Besides the video, I have also written this birthday message for her that I thought I might send along with a picture of a special statue we have in our front yard...
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L----,
Today is your birthday and there is magic in the air.
Today is the beginning of a brand new year in the life of my luscious L---- and whether we stay married, or if we only continue on as friends, this year I intend to pamper you and care for you and give back to you as much lovin' as you well let me for all of the 42 years of love and compassion that I know you have constantly shown others, and especially for everything you have done for me during the past four years of living our lives together.
Even through all our challenges, I can say without a doubt you are the best thing that has ever happened to me. You are the best lover, the best friend, the best woman I have ever known. So this year I want you to have the best year ever with or without me by your side.
Now let me tell you about this picture in as few words as I can, because now I really understand that actions say more than words.
A few days I had my friend Teresa stop by the house and take this picture because for me it has more meaning than I have ever told you.
When I first saw this statue I felt it was a beacon. I knew it was a sign from God that said "Here is your's and Leesa's home."
I have always loved this statue for reasons and feelings I cannot but into words. At the very least, it is a beautiful symbol of true undying Love. For me it represents full and total merger with nothing left to fear. It is a symbol of the Love I have for you.
But there was always something about this statue that made me feel a little fear.
I was afraid because of how into each other these two figures are. I was afraid of how "into" the woman this man was. I was afraid because sometimes it looked the man was losing himself inside this woman. And I was afraid of losing myself in you.
Or more to the point, I was afraid of losing the illusions I had about myself before you came along. Among other things, for me this statue symbolizes the two of us rising up to become bigger and better people together. Both of these figures strike me as being powerful, and subconsciously, I was more comfortable playing small.
And I didn`t really want to change. Until you showed me that I must.
Now this reminds me of nothing more than the best in us. It serves only as a tribute to us, and shows me just how far we have actually come together.
No matter what happens moving forward, I can`t ever thank you enough for helping me become a bigger and better man. Every day I can feel my happiness, mhy confidence and my faith in God and you is growing, and every day I feel so lucky to have you in my life.
Happy Birthday, Goddess.
xoxoxoxox
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Once again, the question is do I share this message with her publicly or privately or not at all?
Looking forward to your feedback.
Thanks.
I am being the possibility of:
1) Integrity 2) Loving myself completely. 3) Things flowing naturally between us, without any fear or attachment to the outcome.
