I know this arrangement is hard at times for me. I really don't consider it as cake-eating at this time, as I do try to stay out of the way and he has total responsibility of D16. He tries to stay out of the way too. I do believe that God has created this arrangement as a way to show peacefulness of our home, and not the chaotic life he lives outside it. He doesn't live with OW and she actually live 40mins away, so they are still in the "secret" of the A. His two lives have yet to collide, which I believe will keep the A going longer. But, I have no control over this and H has to do the work he needs to do on himself before the A or anything in his life is calmed down. Until this, at least every other weekend, he is here in a calm and peace filled home.
IB, I was really anxious when it was time to get back to scrapbooking, as I am doing my books in chronological order and I am just finishing up my 2003 book. Looking at our lives and scrapbooking them was a bit overwhelming and daunting after H moved out. But, I refuse to let this time in my life prevent me from doing the things I love to do. Scrapbooking is one of them, and I want my D16 to be able to look at these books with fond memories when she is older. I had a fantastic time today and I am so glad I have so many fun friends with whom I love to scrap!
I have got to get some sleep! Nite all! Blessings!
Lorie W47 H48 D16 M20 H gone 11/9/10 lives w/OW
When you forgive,you heal. When you let go,you grow. When you cry to God, you surrender. When you love unconditionally, you show others Christ's love.
