Sorry you are having to deal with this,,, I know that DR and this site has certainly helped me personally. My H still wants a D but there are wonderful people here who will help YOU become that better person that you are wanting to be.
You might want to copy your above post and paste it in the newcomers section and start a thread there. You will get a lot more replies!
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M48 H53 M16 T18 S16 D13 SS30 H drops bomb PA/8-30-09 H leaves 12-30-09 D filed by H 2-10 H asks to come home 4-11 Piecing