I am trying to GAL and work hard on my 180. I've also been working hard on loving detachment and letting go of my WAW. I did a little backslide this morning by checking the internet history log on the computer. Looks like WAW was online yesterday shopping for ringtones for her cell phone, the search topic was "Ringtones for reconnecting with a lost love". I believe she continues to communicate with a former boyfriend from her youth who she reconnected on facebook about a year ago. My W and I had a long R talk the other night (initiated by her) and she restated that she was unhappy with the M and considered me a roommate and not a H. I think she tells herself we are just roommates to try to ease her own guilt while she pursues OM and tries to find her happiness. I disagreed with her description of our M as roommates and stated that we are legally married but our M is not healthy and not what it should be. I also stated that I took my M vows seriously, and I did not consider her a just a roommate, because that would mean I was free to go out and date, which I am not. She didn't respond to that, and the OM (lost love from her youth) topic didn't come up. I'm wondering if I came across too strong?
Me 46 W 43 M 17 S 14 D 11 ILYB 9/2010 EA began July/August 2010 ? PA began Nov/Dec 2010 ? I began DB in Jan 2011 I filed 7/12/11 Kids and I moved out 7/30/11 I'm in it for the kids and me.
