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[kat727]

Wow! You have gone through the crazy wringer. You are no way near ready to date yet. You need to get a good read on you as the good, the bad and the ugly of ots.

An analogy that might help: several years ago I was a flight attendant. Not crazy about my job but the pay was good. Anyway , several years ago there was a crash where everyone died. These were people I knew and had worked with. I was terribly upset but was going to work because I didn't have any sick time left to call out. My supervisor came to me and said I was going home. I was in no shape to save anyone let alone myself ( which is what flight attendants are there for by the way). I started to disagree but he continued "don't let this stop you from flying. Make sure you keep flying until you aren't scared anymore. If you don't, the fear will win and you probably won't fly again."

I have used this sage advice many times since. Get yourself where YOU can take care of you and then overcome your fears and wade back in.

kat