Well turn of events has been interesting and frustrating. H started texting yesterday...no actually this all started 2 days ago. I got a text from H saying he read the letter i gave him awhile ago. It was quite a heartfelt letter that he wouldn't read before. The next day he texys me that he wants to come over. I tell him no but he shows anyways. We ended up talking for awhile. This is what he tells me...
Things that I have accused him of are probably true. The break down of this M is 100% his fault. He has been an unfaithful husband and done so many things to hurt me. His guilt has made him try to walk out on me many times. There is only so much he could live with and the guilt has been eating him up inside for a long time. he has been a "good boy" for the last 2 years but the guilt still consumes him. He doesn't know how to be honest with me.The convo went on and I did tell H thank you for being a little bit honest. At the very least I can finally know that I am not crazy.
OKAY so now I need a really big 2X4....yup the biggest one you can find.So after all of that....here is comes...we had sex.
H persisted and I finally gave in.Yup....need the 2X4 NOW!!! How stupid was that. He took me out for lunch (paying for the service????) and then hung around the house til 6. He did tell me that HIS friends have made him think that I was having sex with an old friend of his...which I am NOT.
Anyways, after yesterday H has barely spoken to me today. 2 texts all day. so again....in desperate need of 2X4. I am sooo stupid.
Me:35, 2 kids from PR H: 37, 2 kids with me T: 15 years M: 8 years in Feb. Second walk out: 14-01-2011 H had PA: 2007
