WAW on the Peninsula

[LITB]

A few days ago when Denver asked me what my role was in the breakdown in my M, I promised that I would share all of the mistakes/W’s complaints when I had my journal in hand. I took ownership for every single one that I could think of and gave it to my W in my letter a couple of weeks back. Here they are and I will list them as they were in my letter:

-Not meeting your emotional needs.
-Not including you in all of my/our decisions.
-For not being proactive on your request (W’s LL is Acts of Service)
-Not taking the time to understand your needs
-Not telling you how much I appreciate everything you do.
-For not listening to you when you asked me (what I’m sure feels like a million times) to stop smacking your butt.
-Not spending enough quality time with you.
-Not communicating to you how much I care for you and love you.
-Not joining you when you went out with your friends.
-For making you feel rushed when we were visiting.
-For getting defensive when you would ask me questions.
-For not spending more time by your side while we were at events/gatherings.
-For not hugging and kissing you enough.
-For making you feel like you were raising the kids on your own.
-For not planning and doing more things as a family.
-For allowing ourselves to worry about getting everyone else Christmas gifts and not making sure you came first.
-For offending or embarrassing you with my sarcasm around other people.
-For not telling you often enough how beautiful and amazing I think you are.
-For not taking you on more dates.
-For spending too much time on my phone and the computer.

Some of these complaints came after the bomb that I didn’t even know were issues. Anyhow, I took ownership for all of my mistakes. I now realize the many things I did wrong and the many things I could have done better. I have corrected all the ones that I can given the current sitch. If the W decides to never come back, I am sure there will be someone more than happy to take her place. Still doesn’t make this any easier.