At the last stop

[Orchid37]

Yeah, you have it right. It's been a difficult 2 weeks since I found out. Actually, I need to change my sig. Married from 2004-2009. D - 9/2009, Ex moved back in 5/2010 and then left again 1/2011,

He left on 1/2011, met her and married her in 3 weeks time and she may be pregnant. I don't have confirmation on that, yet.

I have been moping a lot and having a really good pity party.

I need to find my focus again. exH is really messed up and unfortunately has gotten himself in a real bind. I cannot help him with this one.

If she is pregnant, I am definitely out.

If she is not, exH will have to make a decision about current marriage. If he continues, I'm out.

The problem is he did this impulsively, to take the decision out of his hands and well....he did it in spades!

I will wish him luck, if he wants to stay with her and I will have my closure.

I feel that I did everything I could in my power to make this relationship work. If it doesn't....well, I can still walk away with my respect intact. I have loved him and cared for him at each point in this journey - without judgement and with patience.

Having a child - impulsive or not - is something I will not - and should not - compete with. This child will need a full time father and though they are married only for 3 weeks, maybe this is what he needed. Maybe its forced structure that he needed and the something that I could not provide.
I will have to accept that.