Might have just made my final big mistake with her.
She had already agreed to come to the table and talk with me and the DB coach.
That was the action she was prepared to take.
I had to push. I had to call her back a little while later and ask her why. Why would she agree to go.
All she could say was she couldn't see any reason not to.
I pushed.
I pushed her away so far and hard again now I'm not even feeling like I want her back.
I was going to say she just isnt willing to work with me, but as soon as I said that to my self I saw I was mistaken because she agreed to come to counseling.
But she still insists she doesn't want to be with me and we are not meant to be together so why am I still trying.
No way around it. Sometimes life [censored].
I am being the possibility of:
1) Integrity 2) Loving myself completely. 3) Things flowing naturally between us, without any fear or attachment to the outcome.
