Unless my financial future is secure i can not have peace of mind. The only way to do that though is to file, and i am terrified to go down that road. I know how it destroyed my mother when i was young, so it brings up wounds from the past. When my h starts down any path in life he completes it. He is very good at setting goals and accomplishing them, like planniing his future with ow. MIL made it through the surgery, which is good, I can't take any more heartache now.
