After chatting for awhile, she told me she had sent me the divorce papers and asked if I had received them yet.
I said no, and then asked her how she felt about sending them.
She said she still isn't completely certain.
She said she appreciates the space that I have been giving her without putting any pressure on her because she knows that her feelings change from day to day.
We talked some more and then I asked her if she would attend a second DB coaching session with me.
She answered by saying something like
"I guess it couldn't hurt, but what would be the reason for it? What would you want to do that for?"
As calmly as possible I explained that I had many reasons, but really I was looking for some help understanding each other's feelings and getting a neutral point of view.
She then started talking about her feelings that I just don't seem naturally attracted to her (God what an idiot I was), and that it never really seems to work with us physically the way that she really wants.
Then we talked a little more, me becoming increasingly passionate about why I want her, before she had to go and get the kids from school.
After she left, I typed out a message that I was going to send her, then thought better of it and decided to post it here, first to see if I could get some feedback before sending it or saying anything else to her.
What do you all think? Now that I know the divorce papers are on there way, should I send her the following message?
To: Beckie Subject: I'm happy you are standing up for yourself.
I'm happy you were able to finally get through to me and help me understand the way you have been feeling. I wish I could have seen it sooner.
I am happy you were able to tell me what you want and need. I wish I could have heard it sooner.
Unfortunately I was blinded by my fears, and didn't actually realize it until my greatest fears come true.
No I would like you to try again with me.
Because you have now made your feelings, wants and needs very clear to me, in as few words as possible, I'd like to share mine with you...
What I am always feeling is Love for you like no other.
What I want whenever you are ready is for us to try some more marriage counseling together before we make it final.
And the only thing I really need from you right now is for you to continue being true to you.
Of course there are so many other things I want us to be and do and have together at some point in the future, but if you feel there is still any chance at all than I
hope we can start with this.
Hmmm. On second thought, when I'm REALLY being honest, I also still want some of those sexy Canada Shirt photos.
MMM MM MMMMM!!!!
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I would really appreciate any feedback that you have.
Thanks,
Mike
I am being the possibility of:
1) Integrity 2) Loving myself completely. 3) Things flowing naturally between us, without any fear or attachment to the outcome.
