Turned a corner

[verysad2day]

A few days ago I noticed that my H had booked a hotel room in OW town. He never mentioned it, neither did I. Then yesterday I saw that he had used our reward points for a fancy hotel room in same town for Fri and Sat night. I saw this before we met for lunch. He never mentioned it. Finally last night, he said that he had to go to Tx for work (not uncommon) He didn’t know that I already new.

I “game played” and said I would go along. He came up with every excuse in the book. Oh, he had by then changed the password to the hotel account.

He was in complete panic mode this morning. We talked by phone on his way to the airport (he still doesn’t know that I suspect anything) and he was crying and sobbing telling me he doesn’t know what to think. He is afraid that my “ultra ego” will show up again in the future. We talked for 45 minutes. A lot was said.

I think I made a HUGE MISTAKE. I never said ILY, but kept saying “you know how I feel about you and that I don’t want a divorce, but only you can make this decision.”

He is obviously very confused. He said that this weekend apart might be a good thing, time to think it all over and that he would talk to me in a few days. My bad, said “I won’t hear from you for a few days?” He sighed. He also said something very troubling “If my decision isn’t what you want, how are you going to react, I mean do I need to make a reservation at the emergency room?”

This is going to be the hardest 4 days of my life. Thoughts/ideas????


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