Been on a bit of an emotional tilt-a-whirl last few days. Think I'm finally getting back to where I want to be.
Had our C appt last night. I left having mixed feelings. W and I have been acting like roommates past few days and she brought that up in the session. Brought up how rude and disrespectful she thought my boys were. C tried to get her to hone in on how they were disrespectful, etc. Finally came to the conclusion that S14 is condescending, talks too much and doesn't respect his elders (i.e. me and XW). W begrudgingly admitted S12 wasn't too bad to be around. I also brought up the snuggling we did early this week. W seemed non-plussed about it, it was no big deal she seemed to say.
We talked a lot about W being on her own and having her own space. How often we'd visit each other, ground rules, etc. W really wants time just to herself, she's tired of most of our friends. This will be complicated by our upcoming trip to Asia with 3 of those same friends. We'll be spending 17 days together. At least for most of the trip we each have our own rooms.
W admitted after session that MC isn't really doing anything for her now. I agreed, W needs to work on her own issues before working on us. Was feeling less than hopeful after MC. Went out for dinner after and talked more. Even with this pseudo-negativity, W mentioned positive things about the future.
I'd realized this morning that I've been moping (probably about the move) and that there really are a lot of positives in our sitch. Haven't been doing a very good job at reminding myself of that. Might need some encouragement and/or 2x4s from the studio audience out there
Me 43 W 38 M 5 T 7 SD20 S15, S13 with 1st W ILYBNILWY June 2010 Separation/Bomb July 2010 Divorce Feb 8, 2011
