Have you read Mars/Venus? I'm thinking you have... do you remember the part where he discussed the woman's need to cycle down to the bottom? I made sort of a jump to conclusion that he was talking about PMS, but he elaborated that PMS is part of that process, but not always so. I think that you just might be needing to "go down" for a little while".
Time to think about what's happened this year, and where you want to be/go next year? Who you want to be and who you want to do it with (bad grammar... sorry).
Are you just in a place where you're feeling edgy and anxious? Do you feel you need to always be DOING something?
I've found that when I feel that way, the perfect antidote is to pray (or you can meditate) and then decide not to do anything. As our friend Soup says, cherish yourself.
Call a girlfriend--go out for coffee. Buy some new makeup. Go get a manicure and pedicure. Do girly things that make you feel good inside. If you absolutely HAVE to do something tangibly evident, go volunteer to work at a food bank for a few hours--offer to babysit for a friend--bring some toiletry items to a shelter... anything that feels good.
My need for crazymaking stemmed from my childhood--getting my parents' attention and words of affirmation when I handled a crisis with grace, speed and efficiency. I've just transferred the need to hear that from my parents to Mr. Wonderful.
After it was something I learned to do instinctively, I would do it not to hear the words, but because things were slow and agreeable... and boring. It would give me something to do to occupy my time--and in the end, I could say to myself, "Wow, you did it again! Great job!"
The only problem with that was that the problems were all contrived so I could tell myself what I wanted to hear.
There are so many other quiet ways to achieve the same results--ones that don't lead you and your H down a dangerous path.
Sometimes the best thing to do when you're feeling the need to do something nutty to relieve yourself of whatever you're feeling is to do absolutely nothing.
So use your "nothing time" to pamper yourself instead. Avoid sucking your wonderful H into the mood--you'll be thankful if you do!
JMTCW... Hugs.
Underdog
"There are only 2 ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."
