I haven't done everything wrong...

[islander]

Bond, thanks fOr your input. But I am not avoiding W at all bc I thinks she wants to talk about D. She has changed our meeting several times the day of, and I decided that I was going to be the one to change the meeting this time. I had the opportunity to go fishing and I said I couldn't bc of the meeting, then thought about it for a few minutes and decided that I should go and reschedule it. And I actually know what i am going to say and what I want in the D if and when SHE files. if she wants to talk about the D, I am going to tell her that is not something I want to talk about right now, nad that I have a lot of things that I need to figure out for myself. If we get to the D one day, I know what I want, our house (which I know she doesn't want- it is under right now) and she can take the credit card debt (about an equal trade). I am already starting to fix up the house, and I know she will be shocked to see what it looks like whenever she comes over. I am making these changes for me, so that I am not co stately reminded of the way things used to be.

Your right, she doesn't respect me at all. The only way I would take her back would be if she said that she made a mistake and that she really loved me. Right now, I don't see that as being realistic. I in no way would just let her move back in, and I know she wouldn't unless she really wanted to save our M.

As far as being single, I kinda am right now. But that doesn't mean that I should do. Allnof the things a single person would do. I am a M single person right now, atleast to the principles of M if nothing else. And if I were D tomorrow, I wouldn't even think about dating right now. I would need to do exactly what I am doing right now. Fixing up the house, working, spending time with my D, working out, and that would be about it for a while.