Rolling with the punches

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So i talked to my daughter yesterday. As usual i have this weird stress when i call the number to my W. I feel like i am about to take the exam of my life.

So this time, phone comes on and daughter starts talking. So i guess W of her family decided not to talk on the phone. So i had my entire 15 min conversation with my 3 year old and then hung up. Usually my W stays on and interprets some of what my daughter says. This time none of that. I am trying not to read too much into it, but can't help. It could be that she's upset about our previous conversation. She decided that it is better for her not be part of our conversation. It could be anything. I really need to stop doing this.

So i was thinking that W may not invite me to daughter's ceremony they planned to have next weekend. But i did get an email late last night with W telling me that they moved it to March11th. She asked me if i would be coming. I guess that's one positive thing.

With the stupid specter of the final divorce-decree haunting me every moment, some of these little joys are turning into emotional outbreaks for me.