Looks like I crested a hill on this &*^^% roller coaster, but not because of anything W did, but because I picked up the keys to my new apartment. Something inside me just snapped, it's like all the fun had been sucked out of the day and left me numb.
W met with her C yesterday and we had a light dinner and tv afterward. I'm sure she saw that I was numb and distant, we just weren't clicking. I went to bed early (back in my bed, not ours) after giving W a half-hearted hug. Still feeling a bit down this morning, almost want to cry off and on. Ugh.
The day will get better I know. Well, I know it intellectually, just have to convince myself emotionally.
Me 43 W 38 M 5 T 7 SD20 S15, S13 with 1st W ILYBNILWY June 2010 Separation/Bomb July 2010 Divorce Feb 8, 2011
