Cautiously Optimistic

[downandoutintn]

I spent so much time blaming myself, trying everything and anything to "save" this marriage, for what?
I don't want what we had.

I am with you on this one. I am starting to feel the same way. The more I think about how I was treated in the M, I am starting to see why I acted the way I did. I could've changed myself then but why would I when I have made changes throughout M and the person I was looking at has never changed one thing. This is becoming a topic that I am visiting a lot lately and beginning to think I may be wasting my time thinking this will ever work out.

Just know that I am feeling your same pain.