Not Sure Which Way to Go

[downandoutintn]

Oh BTW, let's be honest here.
If Sandi and I didn't talk about the power you what would happen if you "talked or Dated" OW, would you have called this friend from HS?

I have no reason not to be honest with you guys. You are on my side of this or at least the ones that are sticking by me and I really appreciate that. I am not sure the affect you guys had on me. I have wanted to contact this person for a long time (years) but never would while I am in a R ro she was in a R. So now is the only time I would have felt comfortable contacting her. I have not contacted her since and have no plans on contacting her again. You guys may have had a sub conscious effect on me but I think W actions had more of an impact. Although I love her unconditionally, a person can only take so much. She keeps telling me to move on and I think that probably had more to do with my actions. I do nothing that is not well planned out other than convos with my W. LOL. I am preparing myself on how to deal with those better. (180s)

Nothing else really to update since we really have not spoke other than her going off on me for this car that I know nothing about.