Divorce or Hope?

[ninelives]

BTW, i ended the call the first time when I called and she called back just a little whie ago in absolute tears and really wants to have this dinner thing with our family and for our youngest birthday

She said that why cant we do this for our son and i said, because when you walked away and decided to end our family, these are the type of things you need to be aware of. You ended our relationship and therefore ended the family.

You cant have it both ways, she then said that I was only thinking about myself and not our son by not complying.

She said it would be good for all of us if we could be civil to each other and have dinners for special occasions and the like.

I again , said no, that it would not be a good idea.

She contiued to cry very hard and I told her to please stop crying and she couldn't . This was something that she always did when we had disagreements. But this time I stuck firm.

Am I doing the right thing? She is not with me, she is with anothet man. How can she expectt me to just forget that while we play happy family. Isnt that also giving the kids mixed messages.

She asked me why I had an angry tone to my voice and I said because there are other things going on in my life besides you.

and its true, I did get into a little trouble at school as I was having a little anxiety attack and walked out of my Phys Ed class which was outside and wouldnt you know it , a fight broke out. Its nothing major but another stressor.

She wanted to know what kind of trouble I was in and I told her that she didnt need to know.

Then I heard her text message go off in the background and I told her that she had more important things to deal with and that she better answer her text.

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