I'm so sorry Rileybug. I haven't read your entire post yet, just the last entry. I know how painful finding reminders of what your H is doing online. In my case, his affair was entirely emotional and only done online. I wish I could say the pain goes away... it does get less with time. One thing I had to do is delete him from everything like facebook or myspace... it was a definite test of wills to not to go to the sites or chat rooms I knew they were in. Once I was able to let go of finding out what he was doing I could focus on getting myself to a more functional frame of mind.
I know it's hard to think beyond the pain you're in. Maybe now is a good time to go dark unless it has to do with the kids. If anything it'll help you not say something you'll regret later.
Me 34 H 37 M 12/97 H moved out 03/09 D 05/10 S 17 D 12 S 11
