Piecing is almost harder than before...

[XYZ]

Uggggg. This damn roller-coaster. I'm not sure how many more of these ups and downs I can take before I just get off of it once and for all.

If you had asked me at 5:00PM yesterday how the weekend had been, I would have said pretty good, very very busy, but good. If you had asked at 6:00PM yesterday how the weekend had been, I would have said GREAT. If you asked me at 7:00PM, terrible. Let me try to recap a bit.

We had an extremely busy weekend. Lots of family events, lots of stuff. All went well. W and I got along great. Good time with kids, etc. We decided to go out for Mexican food last night, but as we were getting ready, it became clear that the kids were pretty tired and going out wasn't such a good idea. Since W was ready and I wasn't, she said she'd just go pick it up to go. I said no problem, I'll stay here with the kids. A few minutes later I get a TM from W asking if I minded if she have a margarita at the bar before ordering. We're friendly with a bar tender there (female) and she was working. I replied, no problem. W and I had friendly banter via TM for the next 40 min or so. She told me it was nice to have a moment to breath. I said no problem, hang out for a few and breath. She replied "I feel guilty with you and kids at home", I replied "I get that, and I think it's fine for you to take a couple minutes to feel human again" She replied "Thank you for your support". GREAT! Score a point for team XYZ.

Then she gets home with the food. Still fine at first, but....she starts to tell me about this women she saw at the bar. She says "you'd like her". I smiled and said "Why's that?". She says "well she had lots of blond hair, big boobs, dressed real sexy". I said "Oh well, I think I'll stick with you, you're what I like". Here it comes....she starts right then with "well, that's not what you always led me to believe. You wanted me to dress that way, and that was what you always liked in movies and stuff." WTF. Great weekend so where's this coming from? I replied, "well, I'm very sorry that I've made you feel that way. I want and have always wanted you just the way you are." "Well, I'm sorry you made me feel that way too." On and on. Kids wanted me to take them outside and W asked me to do that. A bit later, I came back in and W was crying. I hugged her and said "I love you and always have - Just the way you are."

W in a funk the rest of the night and this morning. This damn roller coaster. I hate it and I don't understand it.