I'm starting to feel like NEO in The Matrix. I am starting to believe. I am starting to see the patterns.
She is following a script that she is unaware of.
I am aware. I've got the power. I am in control.
In harmony with God I can make my Love do anything I want It to. She is my Love, too.
I can play her like the most beautiful instrument that she is. I can make her body sing. I can make her heart soar. I can make her mind calm. I can make her laugh. I can make her cry. I can make her dance. I can make her eagerly drop her pants.
I've got the power.
I know her. I see her.
And I can read the script.
In the next big scene, she must continue to assert herself and do her best to follow through.
She must continue to respect herself, to feel good about her decisions, and to do her very best to trust herself and listen to whatever heart is telling her, so if she still feels that I am not the one then SHE MUST follow through and send me the divorce papers to be signed.
It has taken her months to build up her courage, and I'm still not sure if she has actually put them in the mail yet, but as the director of this drama, the best thing for me to do right now is sit here in my chair and patiently wait to see how my beautiful young actress delivers her next lines.
Anything can happen...
I am being the possibility of:
1) Integrity 2) Loving myself completely. 3) Things flowing naturally between us, without any fear or attachment to the outcome.
