Hey BBJ, I don't drop by here much anymore. As I sit here watching the oscars, for some reason...my mind just went sideways and I began thinking how much this whole "THING" has affected me. How at times it still does....how I will never be the same....how I lost my ability to truly open up to someone. So...I decided to come on here and see if some of the old guys are still posting and..............voila there is good old BBJ. Still struggling? Well if there is something wrong with you, YOU are not alone. I have to admit that a few thing s you wrote (especially the potion)was difficult to read. I don't know that we ever get to zero feelings...actually I don't even know what percentage I am at....I do now that it is not easy and that there is no potion or lotion or book or whatever that works for everyone. What can help a little is the balm of a new relationship...but you are not there yet. I don't know what else to add BBJ apart from the fact that I am pulling for you to get closer to where I am.....not at zero....probably never at zero....but somewhere better than where you are now.
