Thank you Busting. I needed to read what you had to write.
It was a little shake awake I needed. It made me realise that I am feeling rejected/abandoned again and less worthy than I am.

Being abandoned is something you don't really get over easily. especially if it's happened more than once in your life, and especially if it happened to you as child. That's a wounding that heals slowly. Clearly I'm not completely healed there yet.

In reading what you wrote, I became aware again, that this whole siutation isn't really about me. It's about H and his own wounding. He rejects me because of the lies, and ideas he carries about me, my behaviour and the certain belief that I can't/won't change.

Thank you, that was gentlest swat with a 2X4 I ever recieved. No splinters!

BITS
Me-51, WAS-52
Kids 2
M-26yrs, H.left 2009, 2 more Bomb drops, Reconnection spring 2013
Change is inevitable, personal growth is a choice.
Love is a action and choice you make, every day.