Shine on you crazy diamond II

[FellOnBlackDays]

BITS,
Woke up this morning still confused. Thanks for all the input from the team. No, I don't plan on telling her I love her or professing my love, but I do think I need to call her. One, I need my mail (it upsets me that she doesn't think this is important. It shows me how messed up she really is still). Two, she owes me money and some things she took without my permission. Now, I know these really are excuses to discuss my want to contact her. Yes, I do need my mail considering some of them are bills. But, I don't really need the money as I make enough to live alone. And, I don't really care about the things she took without my permission as much of can be easily replaced. So, I guess it really comes down to the mail and my never-ending want to here her voice.

If she is starting to panic, well, I guess that would be OK. I do want her to spend some time thinking about what she has done. But, I don't want her to completely lose it and do something foolish or just give up on us. I know, I can't control her or what she thinks. I can only control me. I will think about this some more today. I think she really needs to understand that she could lose me if this continues. Maybe that is OK with her, who knows?

I think the important part is that I have grown enough to be OK with where I am right now. I am taking care of myself and what is best for me. But, at some point, I want to start doing what is best for my marriage because my marriage is a big part of me...

True or JB3, if you are out there, I would love some input.

I hope all the BITS are doing well today!!

FOBD