Glad to see you out with your friends. Isn't funny how you grow out of things after awhile? I have tried to go out with my friends to bars, and I just feel out of place now. This isn't my scene. I usually am the first to leave.
I am learning to completely detach myself with the ideas or thoughts of the OW. If I don't my mind goes crazy and really takes me down. I have no control of my W's actions. I only have control of mine. Thinking about your H and the OW will tear you apart if you don't.
W is getting her own apartment next Saturday down the street "for space". As agonizing as it is, I just have to pick my chin up and say that I support her decision to need space right now and leave it at that. Inside I am crumbling, but I will not allow my W to see that side anymore.
I have picked up a ton of amazing knowledge on this site and learn more everyday. I hope you are getting the best of it as well.
Keep your head up. It will get better.
Me - 33 W - 33 S - 9 months M - 3 years T - 5.5 years Bomb - 12/14/10 ILYBNILWY PA discovered - 1/18/11 PA began - 3/22/10 Separated