I am so proud of my speech kids! 41 performances at Districts yesterday got I ratings, and 7 got II ratings. Pretty good stats! The 41 who got I ratings will perform at State in 2 weeks, trying to earn a nomination to All-State, where the best and brightest from all over Iowa gather to show off for each other.
I reallllly hope we get some kids to All State. Last year we took 6 or 7. This year if we get 3-4 we will be doing well. Some of our superstars graduated so we are in a 'rebuild' year... So much fun with the kids, I was the only coach (there are 3 of us) who rode on the bus with the 45 kids we took and had a blast. Several 'friended' me on FB and I accepted. I have no worries about that bc I am their coach not their teacher and besides I don't post racy stuff on FB anyway!
I am struggling, again. Sick of it. I buck up and rally and find myself sinking again every couple of months. I wonder if it will ever get better. I have just got to find a new counselor or start back at my old one, and maybe get back on meds of some kind.
There is just something mentally wrong with me, I think. I have read till I am blue in the face. I know the principles, I suck at applying them. And even when I say I just want to get over Dan and move on with life, I know for certain that a large chunk of me doesn't really want to.
Like if I met with a counselor tomorrow and he/she said "Here you go. Drink this magical concoction and you will have zero feelings left for your ex".....I doubt I would drink it. Even though I hate missing him. WTF??? I am one messed up chickie.
Sometimes I am so strong and in a good place. Then within a couple hours something else happens and I am crying about him. UGH! Maybe I should quit listening to music!
I have had crying jags here and there almost every day for about a week now. So tired of this. He was texting me at the start of church this morning about exchanging the kids today. I got up during church to go downstairs and prep for teaching children's church (I do that every other month or so, we rotate) and a woman followed me downstairs. She knows the generals of my sitch, that we are divorced and share time with the kids, she knows I would ideally like to work things out, she knows Dan and his family, etc etc.
Anyway she followed me downstairs and asked how I was doing and I started crying, again. She said to message her on FB any time and she will be my prayer partner. She is also going to look up the info for a counselor she has used in the past for her daughter.
The 41 who got I ratings will perform at State in 2 weeks, trying to earn a nomination to All-State, where the best and brightest from all over Iowa gather to show off for each other. 
She said to message her on FB any time and she will be my prayer partner. She is also going to look up the info for a counselor she has used in the past for her daughter. 